I'd set a very low bar for boyfriends. Having subsisted on emotional crumbs, almost any attention was intoxicating. Warning: Do not get between a girl and her intoxicant.
Thank you for that. I’ve been feeling kind of down about the response lately, it means a lot to hear that. I’m doing a deeper dive than I have in the past with these stories and I’m glad to hear someone enjoying them. Feel free to share that enthusiasm with the world! 😉
You have such a unique voice, but I really love it when you mix a little softness with that hard edge, it’s stunning!!! Please keep going… I’m currently reading Strip by Hannah Sward, have you read it?
I love your writing. You always take me right to the moment. Thank you for sharing more of your pain. We all have pain of some sort, but you articulate yours so very well and creatively. XO
I'm no stranger to irrational rage either. I'd never heard "If it's hysterical, it's historical." Makes so much sense. I learned rage from the best of them - my dad. Have slowly shed it like snakeskin that just didn't want to let go. But I am a reformed rager. At this age, it takes too much energy.
It's a recovery phrase, mostly Al Anon I think. It makes a lot of sense when you think about it. There was a time, my anger and rage so toxic, I really believed if I let it loose, you'd be hit with a fireball and burst into flames. Illogical and crazy, I knew that, but somewhere, that thought was there. More likely, I was afraid to let it loose because it would destroy me, or I'd have to look at the source. It's taken a lot of work to let that go — I'm still uncomfortable with my own anger, but I've gotten real good with the boundaries. We should talk about our dads one day...he'll be making at appearance in The Long Goodbye some time soon. ❤️
Wow, Jodi. As always. So raw and sad. I need to know more about your correspondence with Nada! How wonderful to have closure. I also love "Being in my body was the anomaly." Yeah. Bravo.
thanks deborah. I’m really discovering so much about who I was, who I am by not just repeating stories I’ve told a million times but digging deeper. Nada is in Sweden and while I doubt we’ll become real friends, there is a open and honest dialogue going on. If I didn’t write this, I’d never have been moved to try one more time and found her mother’s obituary!
I didn’t want this to end ….
Thank you for that. I’ve been feeling kind of down about the response lately, it means a lot to hear that. I’m doing a deeper dive than I have in the past with these stories and I’m glad to hear someone enjoying them. Feel free to share that enthusiasm with the world! 😉
You have such a unique voice, but I really love it when you mix a little softness with that hard edge, it’s stunning!!! Please keep going… I’m currently reading Strip by Hannah Sward, have you read it?
I love your writing. You always take me right to the moment. Thank you for sharing more of your pain. We all have pain of some sort, but you articulate yours so very well and creatively. XO
Thanks Kirbie, and I appreciate you being a crossover reader. I don't have a lot of those.
I relate to you quite well actually.
I'm no stranger to irrational rage either. I'd never heard "If it's hysterical, it's historical." Makes so much sense. I learned rage from the best of them - my dad. Have slowly shed it like snakeskin that just didn't want to let go. But I am a reformed rager. At this age, it takes too much energy.
It's a recovery phrase, mostly Al Anon I think. It makes a lot of sense when you think about it. There was a time, my anger and rage so toxic, I really believed if I let it loose, you'd be hit with a fireball and burst into flames. Illogical and crazy, I knew that, but somewhere, that thought was there. More likely, I was afraid to let it loose because it would destroy me, or I'd have to look at the source. It's taken a lot of work to let that go — I'm still uncomfortable with my own anger, but I've gotten real good with the boundaries. We should talk about our dads one day...he'll be making at appearance in The Long Goodbye some time soon. ❤️
Ohhhh yes! We still have so much to discuss! I only got the outline about your dad during our NY visit. We have much to dive into still!
Wow, Jodi. As always. So raw and sad. I need to know more about your correspondence with Nada! How wonderful to have closure. I also love "Being in my body was the anomaly." Yeah. Bravo.
thanks deborah. I’m really discovering so much about who I was, who I am by not just repeating stories I’ve told a million times but digging deeper. Nada is in Sweden and while I doubt we’ll become real friends, there is a open and honest dialogue going on. If I didn’t write this, I’d never have been moved to try one more time and found her mother’s obituary!